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Platonic Relationship and Stuff that Matters

Now, the last time i heard this bad word was from my ex-gf many years ago. Using this dirty word to describe her male college's relationship - 'It was just a platonic relationship.' Oh hell yea right! In time to come, this platonic relationship had developed into something else. They got together. I guess mine wasn't long enough.

Whoever invented this word, I have to give you the finger 'cos i don't believe it at all. For me it's either a yes or a no. Yes we go into a relationship, no we juz remain friends or worst off never contact each other again 'cos by doin that, u gather feelings for each other again and it's never ending. It just goes round and round. So the question is, should I be seeing her again. I got all the vibes last Saturday when we went out for drinks. I couldn't remember the last time I had a good night, with solid conversation and everything. A little touchy here and there. Fuck, we even held hands. Only the kiss was missing. I only got it on sms before I went to bed. Does that count? I feel like I gotta take some action soon 'cos I still do not know if she's still with that 40+yr old boyfriend of hers. She could be his daugther for all I know. LoL!

She didn't directly said she's treating this as a platonic relationship but eh dun bluff me. You just couldn't get upfront with me cos you're afraid i may get hurt, jump off a building, commit suicide or scream or something like that. C'mon man what was that all about the previous night? A show? Something you seek to be comforted cos ur guy didn't? Because of some quarrel or misunderstanding? Feeling unloved by him? Using me as a one night substitute? Because I was too irresistible that night? Was the night so surreal to you as you said? Or you want me as your part-time boyfriend? Goodness. Where did that come from? Shit.

We didn't finished our conversation. So I can't tell you more. And I also dunno wad's gonna happened. We even planned going Phi Phi. Everything was just goin too fast. It's like a movie. We even planned to get a matching tattoo done. What the hell is happening? I guess it's game on. Shan't contact you till wednesday. We'll see what happends. We'll see.

But i'll always believe platonic love is platonic bullshit.

But then.... hey i gain 1KG! Hooray!

p/s: I gotta get back to my winning ways. From my hair to my feet. 'Cos Gorillaz told me to feel good. Ahahahahaahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.............

posted by jeremyz @ 11:22 PM